Jesse James: There’s A “Huge Hole In My Heart”

This morning, Sandra Bullock shared her decision to file for divorce from husband Jesse James and adopt son Louis as a single mom. James tells PEOPLE that he has a “huge hole” in his heart, but supports his wife’s decision.

“My whole life has been full of hard decisions.

“The decision to let my wife end our marriage, and continue the adoption of Louis on her own, has been the hardest. The love I have for Louis cannot be put to words. Not having him around to love and to hold has left a huge hole in my heart.

“Sandy is the love of my life, but considering the pain and devastation I have caused her, it would be selfish to not let her go. Right now it is time for me to beat this addiction that has taken two of the things I love the most in life.

“I have always taken great pride in proving people wrong. That time has come once again to show that I am not what everyone says I am. I know in my heart that I can be the best father possible to my four children, and the mate Sandy deserves, and realize that this is an incredible mountain to climb. But I believe that the steps I have taken in the last 30 days are the foundation for making this happen. The lifelong commitment I am making is what being a real husband and father is all about.

“I ask that you please do not judge Sandy for the things I have done. She has done no wrong. She played no part in any of this. She has been an amazing wife, mother, and best friend, for the over 6 years we have been together.”

What do you think of Jesse’s statement? Genuine? Do you think there’s a chance for reconciliation?

Filed under: Jessie James,Sandra Bullock

Photo credit: GSI Media

  • rocsta86

    what does he mean let her end their marriage? does he really have a say?NOT IN MY OPINON!

  • Theresa

    oh boo hoo jesse! you suck!!!! creep!!!!

  • eliza

    I have no sympathy for Jesse James. I’m glad that Sandra divorced him and adopt Louis.

  • Anonymous

    There’s A “Huge Hole In My Heart”

    That’s a misquote. What he actually said was “There’s a huge hole in my head.”

  • Anonymous

    I really think the whole adopting a black baby thing is a ploy to convince people that she’s not racist and she didn’t know that her husband is a Nazi loving racists. but come on, that has to be the dumbest reason to adopt a black baby. I’m sorry for the baby. and as for Jesse James saying that Sandra Bullock is the love of his life–really?!. It’s funny how men figure out that their wife is the love of their lives after they cheated and embarrassed the wife. so her being the love of his life didn’t stop him from cheating and when he was all up in the other women did he stop to think that Bullock is the love of his life? NO. you’re full of shit Jesse James. Obviously she wasnt and isn’t the love of your life. you’re not fooling anyone.

    • amber g.

      so where’s ur proof that she is a racist? she been in the process 4,4 yrs. b4 any of this started,so ur thought’s make no sense,m/b ur just a racist who does’nt want a white woman 2 adopt a black child,idiot! that’s probably why ur anonymous!

    • Avonymous

      i agree, i think you’re the racist one. why does it matter what color the baby is, she’s giving him a better life. get some therapy to get over your issues with yourself.

    • jlove

      She adopted the baby in January…Well before that story came out. I’m sure they knew the race of the pregnant mother. What kind of a person are YOU to even think something so juvenile and ignorant??

  • Sandy Fan

    hey jessie…can i get a wahhhh!!! i agree with everyone above that jessie is full of it!!! he wasn’t thinking of her or the baby they were in process of adopting while he was sleeping with every trashy woman that crossed his path….puuuhhhleeez!!! this is so typical of this type of situation. “my whole life has been full of hard decisions. cry me a river! first of all, who’s isn’t? second of all, he had a really good life before he pissed all over!
    I do have to respond to anonymous above to disagree with the statement you made about Sandy adopting the baby to prove she wasn’t racist. I think you are dead wrong!! First of all, I don’t think she has anything to prove. She is a woman with class! They have had the baby since January, which was months before all of the Nazi stuff came out. And don’t forget the role that she won an Oscar for. She had to put herself in a position of really understanding prejudices and what kids without hope struggle with to pull that off the way she did. I commend her for adopting a child from the US. Lots of people adopt from overseas, which there is nothing wrong with. I think the process is longer and more difficult here in the US and there are many children that need homes.
    She deserves no negative judgement or questions about what she has done. She went through something more difficult than many of us can imagine being “blindsided” by her husbands infidelity just months after adopting a child, all in the public eye. She has protected herself and her child from all of this by staying out of the public eye to gather herself together and make the right decision. I completely respect her and admire her for her strength! You rock Sandra!!!!

  • loveliason65

    “Let her end the marriage?” Puhlease.

  • Moriah

    Thank you “Sandy Fan” for setting “Anonymous” straight. That comment was so ignorant.

  • Stacy

    Wow, there is almost as much drama on the message board as there is in the story. Sometimes I cannot even believe the things you write. No, it isn’t right what he did, but it appears he is trying to be a better person. Probably a little too late, but none the less. It is not our job to JUDGE anyone else in this life. Set good examples, learn from mistakes, try to be the best we can be……

    • amber g.

      r u nazi 2?!

      • Stacy

        I hope that wasn’t directed to me. I just see a lot of judging going on here and its kind of sick. No, what he did wasn’t right, especially to someone who appears to be one of the nicest, kindest people in Hollywood. Just wondering where peoples heads are sometimes…

      • AMBER G.

        him bein a nazi racist is not a mistake.he did’nt become 1 for 2 day’s and then far as hom cheating i could care less if ppl want 2 4give him.

        • Stacy

          OK. I’m not arguing with anyone. Just wondering why your asking me if I’m a Nazi??? I never said a thing about it. I could care less if people forgive him too because it has nothing to do with any of us.

  • Sandy Fan

    i’m not judging him, i am just calling it like i see it! sorry but I have been in bad relationships where the man has come back and been like oh I am so sorry i treated you so badly. i’m going to change. blah blah blah! The truth is, how would still be fooling around if michelle whats her face hadn’t exposed him! they never feel bad until it’s too late! sure learn from your mistakes but the truth is, his actions were beyond wrong, he hurt so many people, including his own children, and he had a life that lots of people would love to have. And truthfully, if you read his interview over again, his words are ALL very selfish!
    I wish him luck becoming a better person, but the jury is still out on that!

  • thanks

    Compare it to a wife beater who says that they are sorry for what they did..
    and how their wives are the most important in their lives.. If so Jesse..than
    why do we have to hear that you miss the kid already..!!!

  • Raven

    For people out there who say that Sandra adopting the baby to prove she wasn’t racist. She dose not have to because she not one. One of her best friends Regina King a black actress has been friends for years and also what to privet wedding Sandra Bullock to Jesse James. Another thing if you knew anything about adoption you would know that you get the baby photo months prier to getting the baby. So Sandra already knew she would be adopting a black baby even before she knew her so called husband was cheating on her.

  • Romeo Blue

    He should have kept it in his pants….

  • Anonny

    “Let”??? Did also “let” her find out you were cheating while you “let” her take care of YOUR kids. JJ is NOT a good person in any sense of the word and a hole in the heart is the least he can suffer for all of the damage he’s done.

  • Aliana

    Oh, wow. How nice of him to “let” her end the marriage! He clearly is a better person than I thought.

    Let? REALLY?!

  • Jesse is not alone mrs king too

    What is the difference between him and Shaun King Larry’s wife..having boyfriend be on E.T every night talking about their love Jesse is not
    doing that nor his girls.. Just

  • SiervaMaria

    Um Jessie, your wife didn’t end your marriage, you did. I’m so happy that Sandra has Louis in her life. Nothing spends the mending/healing of a broken heart like a little one who needs your undivided attention.

  • Kati

    “There´s a huge hole in my heart.”! Right. That should probably have been – like someone said -” a huge hole in my head”. Jesse should have thought twice before cheating on his soon-to-be ex-wife Sandra Bullock. Jesse doesn´t deserve such a classy lady as Sandra. She is truly an intelligent and beautiful woman. And as far as Sandra adopting a black baby is concerned. So what? Many people – famous or not – have adopted black babies before her. But ever since Angelina Jolie adopted Zahara no one talked about it. She was the one who made adopting a black baby “public”. And since then for example Madonna has adopted not only one but two adorable black children. I really hope that Jesse one day realises what he gave up by cheating on Sandra and “losing the love of my life”. Hopefully Sandra will find a better man than Jesse in the future. And so what if she doesn´t? She now has this adorable little boy to love and take care of.

  • Anonymous

    Does anyone here ever check their spelling before they post?

  • Anonymous

    Oh Jesse we really feel your pain hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

  • Anonymous

    Mia Farrow adopted two black children over 20 years ago and it was made quite public.Ms Farrow has adopted more than 10 children and had 5 biokogical before Angie Jo was even born.Josephine Baker a black woman who was also an actress and single who moved to France had adopted over 30 chikdren including whites this was in the 40’s till the early 50’s..Angie has some catching up to do if you ask me.

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