A lot of things have changed for Michelle Williams since her years on Dawson’s Creek. Now receiving a Golden Globe nomination for her latest film, Blue Valentine, opposite the Ryan Gosling, Michelle opens up about two topics which are very close to her heart – her daughter Matilda, and her former partner, the late Heath Ledger.
“It’s going well,” she tells Nightline, expressing her desire to keep her 5-year-old daughter’s life as normal as she can. “We’re doing a good job of it.”
It is of more importance to me than anything else in my life and I would rearrange anything to make that possible. If something starts to encroach on that, then it’s going to be removed from the equation.
She acknowledges that she is in a difficult profession for this, adding that her career and her home life “are at odds with each other”.
Michelle also spoke about the loss of Matilda’s father, Heath Leger, who died in New York City after an accidental overdose, two years ago next month.
“I’ve found meaning around the circumstance,” she explains. “But the actual even itself still doesn’t have… I can’t find… I can’t find it. I can’t find a meaning for it.
“I can find meaning in things and people and relationships that have sprung up, and friendships that have strengthened. I can find a lot of meaning in that. But not in why, you know?”
She goes on to say that she almost misses the year following Heath’s passing: “It didn’t seem unlikely to me that he could walk through a door, or could appear behind a bush,” she says. “In some ways, I am just, I am sad to be moving further and further away from it.”
Recently, Michelle spoke with USA Today about her life with Matilda and how motherhood has changed the world around her: “Five years down the road, it’s my new normal,” she explains. “I loved so much becoming a mom and what had been, to me, this invisible community before (that) sort of rises up and says, ‘We’re here to help you.’ I was so moved by this new kind of community of people. And then when I became a single mother, there was a smaller but equally powerful community that rose up.”
“You make it work,” she adds. “You keep getting out of bed. Sometimes it’s just because you know there’s a cup of coffee downstairs.”