The model, 31, recently opened up to Cosmopolitan about her struggle with alcohol.
The Sports Illustrated Swimsuit Issue model and husband, Grammy Award-winning singer John Legend, are planning to add to their family, which has inspired her to focus on wellness.
“We’re going to try to have a child,” she shared. “This is for us to try to get in the zone of ‘let’s travel, let’s be away together, let’s see our closest friends,’ and then we’re going to have to do something super hard, which is the IVF process, all over again.”
Before their recent trip in Italy, Teigen attended a wellness retreat in Bali.
“I was, point blank, just drinking too much,” she shared. “I got used to being in hair and makeup and having a glass of wine. Then that glass of wine would carry over into me having one before the awards show. And then a bunch at the awards show. And then I felt bad for making kind of an ass of myself to people that I really respected. And that feeling, there’s just nothing like that. You feel horrible. It’s not a good look for me, for John, for anybody.”
She added: “Imagine everything we have. Everything is there, always. I don’t know how to go to an awards show and not drink.”
She has a history of alcohol abuse in her family, and admits she’s the type of person who “can’t just have one drink.” She is also taking medications for postpartum depression and anxiety, which “alcohol is like the least thing that helps.”
“Nobody really brought it up to me,” she said. “They just assumed that it was OK because I always felt OK the next morning. I knew in my heart it wasn’t right. It makes you very short with people. People think it’s cutesy and fun to go on these boozy brunches, but there’s more to it. I’ve never once been like, ‘I’m sure glad I had that boozy brunch!'”
During her time in Bali, Teigen abstained from alcohol and didn’t find herself missing it.
“It was really, really wonderful,” she said. “I would wake up feeling amazing. My skin felt amazing. I was just so happy.”